quiet times.
Sunday, June 18, 2006
damn. thats all i can say.
i just wasted 45mins of my freaking life. doing nothing. actually i was doing something but there was no product. as in.. *blog blog blog*, *backspace* *blog blog blog*, *backspaceeeeeeeeeeeeeee*. wtf. i wrote a post 45mins long, then my explorer kena error. wasted my time. so now im writing it on wordpad first, then transfer over.
man i must admit i suck damn bad at bowling. been trying to do the curvespin on the ball but cant seem to do it properly. but well its an improvement. i used to score 20+ with the curveball thingy but i got 50+ just now. its a 100% improvement! (: :D and as usual techun pawned all of us with 168 for his score. sick la.
you know sometimes when i pretend to be okay on the outside when im out with you, it might not actually seem the way it is. i mean, whenever you put on THE sian sian look then i'll also get veh sian then i ask you whats wrong then you put on this irritated tone and go like "whaaaaat?.." then followed by a "nothing lah.." you think i like to keep asking? its just that i hope im not the factor that makes you like that. it really SUCKS to see you like that. and it sucks with CAPS on.
"Maybe some things are just never meant to have a second chance. Cause once the damage is done, it's done. Nothing else you ever do can cover up that hole."
ever heard of fillings? like in the mouth itself there're things called.. dentures. sure you wont feel the same there, but its still a necessity for living right? no teeth, no food. (more birds, more luck! :D) and you cant probably be skipping meals for life. think, without them you wouldnt even be savouring your incredible $240 seafood meal at east coast park RIGHT BEFORE THIS. admit it, its empty ON YOUR PART. maybe that person is desperately trying to cover up that indecent hole he'd made. and lets say, two hands make a clap.
or you might say, "Sometimes. You wanna hear it, but is that what I want? As like what was taught in bible study last Sunday during yf. Man only like to hear what they want to hear. They like what they want. So if they don't get what they want, they don't like it. They turn nasty. They become unhappy. So maybe you're unhappy cause you're not getting what you want. But. That thing that you want, is it for the better of everyone?"
dont cling. thats what some of my friends told me. i dont know, but maybe your friend there needs something to encourage him to continue with whats hes doing. mayb he doesnt know that you actually need him, and gives up. its a loss on both sides. now wouldnt it be alot simpler if you'd just say it subtlely. mayb all he wants is just for you to show him that you care, to motivate him to work harder in whatever hes doing. if your hug or cheering for him, or even somethin as small as a smile can do wonders and make a huge difference, why not do it. if he really is important to you, then maybe showering concern is the right way out after all. best of all, its FREE! haha=p
or even "Sometimes what you wish for just doesn't come true.
Maybe it all just came too late. Although you're here for me now, am I still where I was before you left? People change. I'm sure everyone knows that. What's the point of offering all that now when, maybe, I've already..moved on?"
if you've already moved on, then why bother to even reply his smses, or even give a damn about him? maybe if you'd even give him a chance, then something might just happen? by the grace of god, his sincerity or love may even move you, and if your confident enough, you can pray for the chance to consult your parents about this kinda thing. i dont know, maybe you may even start liking him?
but imo, you should learn to start to open up. to someone really close perhaps? you say that how come he doesnt look sad or depressed
when hes with you? maybe its because he doesnt wanna spoil the nights you both've spent walking together to your house from the station, or the afternoons that you've been going out with him. or even the mornings that you've gonna meet him for breakfast at west coast mcdonalds. and he'll see that tired eyes of yours, and go like "are you okay" and you'd probably boycott him for the rest of your life haha.
bahh gonna go play dota with techun already. cant wait to thrash him once again. vbut for the people who added me last time i got a new account.. vivacace-. add me cuz my styleNsubstance got pwned by blizzard. hahah.
anyway got teen games badminton, playing doubles with techun this wed, 7.30am at NTU. do come down if you can make it, as sam says, one more is not a big difference, but one less means alot to us. wish me luck! :D
and to you dear, good luck for econs quiz tmr. ADD OIL OKAY. ILUL(:
haha oops i havent eat dinner. and its 10.15pm. oh well hahah.
-inscribed at 10:18 PM