quiet times.
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
three words. camp was awesome.
it was a first for me going off to church camp after i went into secondary school, and i must say it was amazing. maybe it was the times i actually felt god in my life, or the times i actually spent with people or the midnight walks we had, or even that bowling spree we had. but one thing was sure; the campsite definitely deserved its 5-star rating.
woke up with a splitting headache, but now. it kind of travelled downwards. maybe it was the lack of sleep the day before? or maybe it was the realisation of something closer to the heart? maybe. just maybe.
i had to agree with you for one; the scenery was awesome. i mean, apart from the star littered sky, the grass wet with morning dew, the serenity of the whole place itself just calmed me.
i.. just am speechless.
on the last day of camp, we went for this morning walk thru the golf course. took pictures and stuff, thenn we went to have QT at the corner of the building itself. it was then. i started praying and praying, and couldnt stop. it seemed that i just had alot to tell Him, and that throughout the whole 15mins or so, i was so. moved. i believe that god has answered me, and that i wanna thank him. Then this song just came up around me, like a whole orchestra just magically appeared somewhere near and began playing. it goes like:
Lord, i come into your presence
Here i stand, in awesome reverence
Falling before, the wonders of your Name.
I didnt know the song really well, but after that. it was just pure magic. i seemed to remember every word, every tune of the song, and began singing it in my mind.
Make me what you want me to be
Teach me your ways
I lay down my life before you
Throw down my crowns before you
Give up my all. for your Name.
I know i dont do QT often, but when i do. I really feel someone with me. Someone i can actually talk to. Someone i can really trust. Someone who knows me inside out. Someone who surpasses all human intelligence. I felt calmed by his presence with me then. Maybe its this waking up call for me. To start organising the year end youth camp. to attend church more regularly. to serve with my soul and my heart. to give up my all. i asked sam what was the title, but he didnt know. then you told me. worthy to be praised. true enough. he is really worthy to be praised.
if you are reading this. dont be such a loner. i was once like that remember? but look. ive definitely changed. you should too. you know, we can always talk if you need to. its just 8 numbers away. promise.
Three is definitely a nice number, but three's a crowd, and two is perfect.
so on the 2nd day of the camp, which is also the 2nd last day of the camp we kind of celebrated techun's birthday. 12midnight we went to room 226 to surprise him with an oreo birthday cake:D i could tell he liked it. man, who wouldnt. hey dude. if you are reading this. dont say i didnt write on your birthday card. happy birthday, from guesss who(:
i really suspect this whole "dear" thing. isnt it just what you call everyone? sometimes i feel that hey so whats the point of having me as that when you dont really need me? i mean, for security purposes? or as a last resort, when theres nobody else to talk to? tell me. theres really no need for me when theres that "dar" guy, or serene, or just anyone else right. so i just thought, hey maybe, we should just cut it off. how naive of me. i actually thought.. nvm. was reading thru your blog this morning, and unexpectedly. it served as a heartbreaker. i know how unfair i was. like only talking to you when i needed someone else, or like not replying and stuff. and sometimes, i really regret that. i just really cant believe that i woke up this morning with this thought. about how im gonna make it up to you. and.. other stuff. but i guess it aint important now, right? your heart's not here. its with somebody else. but i really enjoyed the times we had the last few days, and i hope you did too. but so maybe i should just. pay back what i owe you, and leave it at that. cuz i know. that i'll forever be just a small little kid, aged 15, aka "dear, or that outram sec guy, or andrew", with no strings attached to you.
i'll pretend nothing had happened, until you read this. till then, good luck with him.
-inscribed at 8:57 AM
Thursday, May 25, 2006
LOOK:
lesson learnt from a day of jamming; jeremy sings damn well. and well yes im being quite sarcastic :D
went chinatown today for this heritage learning journey thing. two words. damn boring. haha okay la maybe the egg tart was nice but still.. haha(:
oh and if u havent realised already i changed my script prompt to a disclaimer. now the senior admin cant do anything about our rights to voice out stuff on particular matters. yeah just finished a game of dota with max felton zhanyi yisheng and a couple of other people i dont know but seems like they have this kind of attitude problem damn kpkb. get owned then stfu la.
went to east coast for class outing on tuesday. schoool hooliday ma so must make fulll use of it haha(: we met at around 11 i guess then took about 1 half hour just to reach there cuz SOMEBODY had to take the bus from the damn interchange -.-
and we started plying soccer on th beach haha and zhengxi scored an own goal:D so in the end the score was like 5-2.. thanks to me haha=p
this started out as actually a couple of us wanting to take a pic with our feet in the sand but apparently somebody just had to tell everyone then everyone came over. poor hanjie had to stand in the sea to take it hahaha.
and we passed by this sandcastle built by dunno who and hell yeah it was big man. damn big(:
wads brenton and leonard doing the same thing
oh yeah we passed by this shop in chinatown. damn sexy lah haha even got pikachu condom lol now we know what to get matthew chew for his birthday present hahaha.
the trademark egg tarts of bullcart water(:
well need i say more(:
tmr's our audition for the battle of the bands thingy im not that confident in myself but lets just pray and hope for the best aite.
and i got new red shoes haha:D so now im fully red except school u lah.
bahs really bored.
cant believe it actually happened.
anyways good luck to you then.
haha and nites all.
and u too lynn(: Zzzz.-inscribed at 11:33 PM
Thursday, May 11, 2006
BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH EXAMS ARE OVER MANN WOO0o0o0o0ottZZZZZZZZZ time to pawn more of sOuth.'s head for another 225 gold!! :D :D-inscribed at 10:15 PM
Sunday, May 07, 2006
if only i could turn back time..
i would do these things.
on the first day we met. i'd be less shy.
the second time we met. i'd buy you flowers.
the third. i would send you home.
fourth. i would have kept my promise to you.
all i wish.
is for that fifth.
for me to make amends.
im sorry.
but all i can say is.
Sayin "I love you" is not the words I want to hear from you It's not that I want you not to say but if you only knew how easy it would be to show me how you feel more than words is all you have to do to make it real then you wouldn't have to say that you love me 'cause I'd already know.
go own physics youu. (:-inscribed at 9:49 PM
Saturday, May 06, 2006
ahha hey sorry lah i was grounded from the comp.. exams ma!
anyway after benig deprived of this damned machine for so long ive decided to write at least one page of blogstuff. so its probably glibberish and crap but thank you for still being interested in it(:
after so long, i still have only one thing to say. friendster sucks bad. lets just say.. firstly i got 17 testimonials awaited to be approved, then i cant even see them.then my photos i deleted like all of them then i got some random number of copies of it so now my screen is filled with irrelevant stuff.
amelia's amusing she went to mars to make some mars bars with her friend but apparently i was there too but i didnt see her so she said i was probably on the other side. it alll makes so much sense now. ._.
exams are like the biggest joke of school life cuz if you actually even study for it nothing that you actually study would come out. take higher chinese paper for example. half our class MEMORISED THE WHOLE DAMN CI YU SHOU CE and wtf only 11 words came out from there. and believe it or not. i was in that half haha:D
went on friendster for like since a week and realised. many people actually remember my birthday. haha i mean its quite amazing finding out sudddenly all your pri sch friends start to sms / pm you wishing yoou a happy birthday. maybe i should do it too sometime.
met alastair and nicole while going home yesterday. damn alastair's still taller than me. and hes a prefect. WTH. i mean.. look at him! prefect? nahh. haha no offence intended. and nicole.. hmm she hasnt really changed a bit but i guess she grew. a bit. fine maybe she didnt. but who cares im still about 1 and a half heads taller than her xP
oh and people.. before you scroll down to see the picture. i must warn you its of utmost freakiness and that the person who did this was mentally unsound at that point of time.
here goes.
loll.
ahhh well. its 12.41am on 05/05/06. approximately 4 months since ive known her. but. i just feel that i dont really know her. i mean.. i really do wanna know her more. but she doesnt wanna talk much. like lynn said. if you cant even meet up with her, how are you supposed to woo her?
seriously. i dont know either.
wait.. now amelia's coming up with corn jokes. i think they're quite corny. ahha.. get it? 'corn'y?
Q: Where do corn hide?
A: Corner
Q: how do corn greet each other?
A: CORNichiwa.
t was opening night at the Orpheum theater and the Amazing Eileen was topping the bill. People came from miles around to see the famed hypnotist do her stuff.
As the Amazing Eileen took to the stage, she announced, "Unlike most stage hypnotists who invite two or three people up onto the stage to be put into a trance, I intend to hypnotize each and every member of the audience."
The excitement was almost electric as the Amazing Eileen withdrew a beautiful antique pocket watch from her coat.
"I want you each to keep your eye on this antique watch. It's a very special watch. Its been in my family for six generations."
She began to swing the watch gently back and forth while quietly chanting, "Watch the watch, watch the watch, watch the watch.... ".
The crowd became mesmerized as the watch swayed back and forth, light gleaming off its polished surface.
Hundreds of pairs of eyes followed the swaying watch, until suddenly it slipped from the hypnotist's fingers and fell to the floor, breaking into a hundred pieces.
"Crap" said the hypnotist.
It took three weeks to clean up the theatre。
oh okay as i was saying.
i dont know la we dont talk as much as we used to. but i dont blame anyone; mean. its the exams. we all gotta lead our own lives. i guess. i'll keep trying.
oh heres some random picture i took in class:
i believe it was written by william. so.. watch out 130407 the class treasurer of 3.13 2006 will come and find you. for that million bucks you promised(:
so far i havent been really studying for the tests. everyday al i do when i get home is either:
1) sleep
2) play com
3) watch tv
4) tear up my textbooks
i need a counsellor. can anyone teach me how to study well?
haha.
styleNsubstance just pawned sOuth.'s head for an extra 225 gold.
chinnathan go study lah you play so much still lose to me. n00b =P maybe when you get better then lets go lan together. and get owned by me again. haha sorry you make me feel cocky:D
signed up for this conference at YFC during holidays.. its a crash course for learning musical instruments, and im signing up for bass. not that i dunno how to play.. just that my shifu sucks quite bad so we both gotta go relearn again haha. actually hes not that bad lahh just that he hasnt taken theory before. so he doesnt apply penta and minor scales to his bass runs. unlike someone else here:D
OH and guess what. i got my atm card. with a net value of... 2k inside. hehs. i feel rich.
i know it looks damn sexy. hahahaha.
and probably to end off. heres another quote from amelia.
"erm. wads theh difference between a fly and a mosquito
dunno?
a mosquito can fly but a fly cant mosquito"
hahaha. nites all. or rather. morning all.
`jon-inscribed at 12:23 AM